I really am blessed. And on some crazy level my open heart surgery back in June has been a blessing as well.
Since June my nights have become adventures in awareness. I lay In Bed from usually 11 pm until I fall asleep and read or listen to music. And I have discovered so many great stories and entertainment videos and music I never heard before that have really effected me.
And I just do a lot of quiet thinking and t is so calming. Yes, I am in pain, my chest and shoulder and arm hurt all the time but it’s bearable because the reading and listening def,etc the pain. The evening, the night has been bearable even though I don’t fall asleep until 3 or 4 am. It’s all good.