I can’t sleep on my side or stomach. It is still uncomfortable to sleep that way. So I’ve been sleeping on my back.
I’ve gotten used to it. But to help me sleep I put headphones on, listen to music and think. The process is calming and it can take a while to fall asleep.
But the quiet, contemplative thinking part of this process has been really cathartic. What do I think about? I suppose my life, my family my friends. What have I done right? What have I done wrong. I essentially have been visiting my life. It’s been wonderful to do.
My goal is to write some of what I’m thinking about down here for posterity. Maybe someone will read it one day. So as things come to mind I’ll try to pick the iPad up and write some of it down. Let’s see how this works.
Anxiety. That’s what I’m feeling. 66 years old and less years than more to my life. Five months post mitral valve heart surgery. And now I’m told I need a difibrilater pace maker. Another operation. Not happy. But it will add years to my life. So we move forward. Do what I have to do. I want many more years. I owe it to Sharon, Jessica, Jonathan, Craig, Jake and Jenna. Need to be here for more good things.
Crosby, Stills and Nash makes me remember my college years in Boston. Boston U. Three of the best years of my life. 1972 – 1975. Loved the school. Loved the education. Loved the people. Loved living on campus at 700 Com Avenue. Can’t believe it’s almost 50 years ago. BA in History. Secondary ed teacher certification. Great memories. Names, Eliot, David, Rob, Hal, Mike, Sandy, Debbie, J, and others.
